two steps foward and three steps back

a_pasquinade @ 2005-11-13T14:05:00

2005-11-13T19:46:13Z

I stole this from Adam.
I really need a life.

three names you go by
1. Kathleen
2. Kmac
3. Leenz

three parts of your heritage
1. Irish
2. Irish
3. Oh, and I forgot, Irish

Three Things That Scare You
- Death
- Public Speaking
- The Garden State parkway

Three of Your Everyday Essentials
- Cell phone
- Laptop/Computer
- Lots of food

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now
- Black Le Tigre polo
- My new white Gap sweater
- Urban Outfitters grey/green pants

Three of Your Favourite Bands or Musical Artists
- U2
- The Strokes
- REM

Three of Your Favourite Songs (today)
- Pride (in the name of love)
- Island in the Sun
- Last Nite

Three Things You Want in a Relationship (other than Real Love)
- them to be not as funny as me
- them to be prettier than me
- money
^ LOL MINE AND ADAMS ARE THE SAME

Two Truths and a Lie
- I love scarey movies.
- I'm very mellow.
- I smell really good right now.

Three Things about the Opposite/Same Sex that Appeal to You
- Body
- Nose
- Forehead

Three of Your Favourite Hobbies
- Sleeping
- Watching movies
- Myspace lol, even though it is ruining my life

Three Things You Want to do Really Badly Right Now
- Drive
- Hop a plane to Paris with a really hot guy
- Become smart

Three Places You Want to go on Vacation
- London
- Italy
- Brazil

Three Things You Want to Do Before You Die
- Have kids.
- Write a book.
- Get a passion.

Three people I want to see take this quiz:
- I
- Don't
- Know

So this weekend has been a lot of fun so far. My parents are in Cape Cod for their 25th wedding anniversary = P. My aunt Katie is watching the fort, whatever. Thursday night I saw "Boys Don't Cry" with Adam, which depressed me greatly. After that I went to the batting cages with Tena and my dad, where I was still rather sad from that fucking movie, thanks Adam. Friday I was off, and I spent a good deal of it sleeping. My parents left for Cape Cod at about noon. I was supposed to go to Saw II with Tena where she would finally meet Adam, however Tena was rather sick and so we opted not to go. Adam and I were planning on going to the mall instead, for I need a necklace I saw at Nordstrom, however his father wasn't able to take us, tarnishing those plans. We rented "Monster", which was amazing and has instilled a great respect for Charlize Theron in me. This brings me to yesterday. Once again I slept late, ate lunch, whatever. At about 3 Tena and Kate picked me up, I went to their fathers house, met the fabled Diane. Went to the batting cages, came back to my house, and ordered Domino's. Then, ADAM MET TENA. It was a magical moment. We watched the end of "The Waterboy" which was on TBS, ate pizza, bullshitted, whatever. We went to see Saw II which scared the pants off me, but Tena and Adam were laughing half the time. We went to TCBY after, then Adam's dad picked us up and dropped Tena and I off at my house. Tena and I watched the end of "How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days" and Laguna Beach. It was good times. Tena eventually left at about 11:30, and so I went to bed. It was quite fun, even if it revolved around only two people lol.

LOL @ ADAM

2005-11-07T20:05:20Z

LOL WHY IS ADAM SO AWESOME? (copied from his xanga)

20 Things You Don't Know About Me:

1. I never liked when people said 'jacking off'.

2. I really find very few people funny. Generally it's a fake laugh. Or me laughing at something that I'm thinking about. It's sad but true. And not to be all angsty and cliche but I hate a good 95% of the people I speak with

3. I really do not take criticism well. I generally get mad and defensive. Oh well. Orrr... I just will become very silent and moody. And 'who are they to tell me what to do? They're fat.'

4. I love the rain. And I never get sick of it. I much rather have it rain than for it to be very sunny... I also love that some people get in really bad moods when it rains. Speaking of which... I love when other people are in bad moods and I'm not.

5. I have bad breath. And I'm pretty sure that I smell bad. Nobody ever tells me this because of number 3. I'd use Axe. But... it's too manly smelling for me. I'm not manly. I'm quite the little flimsy pasta.

6. I eat too much. And I know I'm not faaaaaat. I'm actually rather skinny... but I'm not pleased with my weight or my physical appearance. Speaking of that... I like my right side a lot better than I like my left side. The skin on my right side is better... I like that eye better... everything. My right eye sees better. Silly left side.

7. I really don't have a favorite color. And it's not that it changes often... I just don't always enjoy one color. I guess if I had to pick one it'd be a lime green. But that's never consistent...sometimes I like dark lime green and sometimes almost yellow lime green.

8. I really enjoy waking up early in the morning. And not like early as in 7. I like really early. Like before 6. It's just fun. And it makes me feel productive. Will I do it often? No. Then it'll lose it's fun. Plus. I'm really good at waking up. Once I'm awake... I'm awake for awhile.

9. I'm not really an advocate of anything. Except for Evil. And sunflower seeds. AND TELEMARKETERS. Fuck animals and gay rights... and black people.

10. I'd probably dress all scenster-y if I weren't so self-conscious and afraid that the scenesters would mock me for dressing like them. I guess that's what I don't fit in stereotypes... 'cus I'm afraid that I'd be rejected from them. And thus I created the Adam stereotype... I guess I do fit in the gay one. But they're boring. And silly fags.

11. I do get really strong and bizarre cravings for weird things sometimes. Some of the most constant ones: Cherry Coke. Grape soda. Sour cream. Sunflower seeds. Egg rolls. Black bean sauce that I had once with clams.

...I can't think of any more. I'll finish the next 9 tomorrow.

I'm going to pass this to... Evan, Meryl and Sita. Evan because I hate his Xanga posts most of the time and maybe I won't hate this one. Meryl because she never has enough detail. And Sita because I love her.

*tomorrow*

12. I'm too bipolar. Though... I guess there's never a good bipolar. But I'm the bad, excessive bipolar.

13. My career of choice changes constantly. Sometimes it's to be a fun/wacky Art teacher... sometimes it's to be a fun/wacky English teacher. Othertimes it's to be a wacky/crazy New Yorker writer. Sometimes it's to be Clint Eastwood in my old age and create really sad movies.

14. If I think I had a really cute 'awww' worthy conversation with somebody sometimes I'll repeat it over and over again in my mind. This is sorta creepy, yes... but sorat cute on my behalf.

15. I think that people think that since I remember things *sometimes* so well that it means a lot to me. When it's just another silly thing that I remember and has NO significance to my life whatsoever. Like what they were wearing when we first met. Other silly things like that.

16. I RARLEY ever ask to go some place. If I'm not invited... I'll normally just stay at home do whatever... It's just so hard to invite myself some place... or if I do ask it's I always feel VERY awful afterwards.

17. I'm not normally blunt with people if it's to their face... or if I hate them.

18. I used to get salt and sugar VERY confused. Also cup and glass. AND I could never pronounce bowl correctly.

19. If somebody tells me to join something/goes some place too many times I won't do it. Perfect example: Jazz Band. (though that's more 'cus they bore me and I'd probably shoot myself) Other good example; Book Club.

20. I always wanted to be a good chef.

LOL! I was going to do my own one, but I really can't top this. Plus, ours would be too similar.

Today was alright, I'm not fleeing to Mexico after all. Well, as of now. I'm getting an 84 in religion, which I think is bullshit, however I don't feel like challenging my teacher. I'm getting an 82 in Chem which is apparently good for my class. As long as I don't get in the 70's I'm good. However, I'm going to need to/will bust my ass next marking period. I need to work harder. Why am I so damn lazy? I'm totally aware of all my faults, yet I fail to rectify them, or even try. I'm a judgemental, hypercritical, cynical prick with confidence issues, yet I could care less.

I take too man surveys

2005-11-04T12:30:06Z

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? forehead, face, and hopefully lack of stomach

2. How much cash do you have on you? i dont have pockets on me, but i have like $10 in my pocket

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"? best

4. Favorite flower? orchid

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? mom lol

6. What is your main ring tone on your phone? im not sure

7. What shirt are you wearing? iha uni

8. Do you "label" yourself? no, im kathleen, theres nothing i fit into

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing? diesels

10. Bright or Dark room? too bright for 7:30

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? she coo

12. Ever "spilled the beans"? LOL.......probably, yeah

13. What were you doing at 2 this morning? in my bed, sleeping

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say? i deleted it

15. what is a saying you say alot? "back in 'nam"

16. Who told you they loved you last? i'm not sure

17. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past Three Days? woah, too many.... just playin! i be sXe

18. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? i have one picture left on one

19. What is your current desktop picture? ireland lol

20. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret which would you choose? ... money

21. Do you love / like someone? si

But yeah, I need a life.

I'm going to die after locker break

2005-11-02T12:39:15Z

I'm going to die soon.
After locker break to be specific.
I have a test for Miss Rich.
I know that no matter how hard I study in her fucking class, I will never get like, a good dreade, a decent one at best.
I don't know why some people think I'm smart, I mean, a couple people do. I'm retarted.
It's really damn early, and I'm too nervous to be able to study and retain any information, so I'll wait until homeroom for that.
I can't balance a social life and school, I've come to this conclusion. I need to sacrfice one for the other, and well, lets just say a degree from Villanova will get you a whole lot farther then reminiscing about that "time we stayed up until 6 in the morning then ran around the park" or something gay like that.
When I get my report card next weekend, the first thing I'm going to do is cry, then hop a flight to Mexico in hopes that my mom will never find me, and in turn, get a chance to strangle me.

Starting next Monday, I am going to be dedicated, and will finally work to my full potential.
No longer will I spend my nights IM-ing, my weekends hanging out and doing nothing, and my mood depend on anything social, but rather how I did on my last test. I'll finally pick up books, and do my homework, this isn't PC, and I can't bullshit everything and get good grades.
Things have come too easy to me thus far, I need to wake the fuck up and realize that I'm not some genius that can get by on my good-looks (just kidding).

Help me.

writers guild

2005-10-24T18:36:04Z

When I joined this club I didn't know it was about poetry.
I'm sitting in it right now.
I don't really like poetry.
Or cliche teen-angst, which is what this club is half about.

I wish I was in PASS today.
I love politics, I think it's my "passion."
Mostly cause I'm a Grade-A bullshitter.

I saw someones live journal that I haven't looked at in a while.
That sort of impressed me.

Today was a good day, minus the quiz I totally failed in Addabbo.
Oh, and Elman threw pennies at me, but missed and hit like everyone else at my table instead.

LOL AT ALEXA PLAYING TETRIS.
LOL SHE SUCKS.

That made me happier, we're leaving now.

a_pasquinade @ 2005-10-18T07:29:00

2005-10-18T11:38:44Z

1. Look around the room you're in. What would be the most effective weapon?
um, my laptop?

2. There's a stain on your clothing, what is it from?
toothpaste on my shoe

3. What's the most terrible song you've got on your computer?
that song adam made me download from fantasia barrio

4. What is your favorite thing that you wont admit to anyone?
uh, i eat a lot

5. What's the last thing you broke on purpose?
well, i tried to break my cell phone, and yes, i didnt succeed

6. Do you collect anything "unconventional" (baseball cards, stamps, coins, records, etc. are items commonly collected- so, you know, besides that crap) ?
nothing really, wow im boring

7. Oh my God, what's that thing behind you?
a locker!

8. You looked, didn't you.
no lol

9. What word always makes you laugh, regardless of context?
anything John says

10. Whose face makes you laugh?
mine = [

11. Do you prefer the smell of paper or plastic?
papel

12. What is the most attractive letter?
R

13. What is the most homosexual number (single digit)?
9, cause i said so

14. Make up a new word. Right now! Give it a nice, detailed definition and use it in a sentence.
Taharemooch - person who gets away with everything.
The kid who liked acid rock was a real taharemooch.

15. Choose 5 things that you think should be illegal.
1. fat people
2. the SAT
3. people prettier than me
4. going out with guys i like
5. peOPlE H00 TaWlKK LyKE DHis

16. Which of your scars is your favorite?
um i can tell you what isnt, the one by my eyebrow, the one on my forearm, the one on...

17. Is there a word or phrase floating through your head right now?
yeah "GOLD DIGGER" (the radio version)

FUNNY/NOT A LAUGHING MATTER:

18. Old people falling down:
NOT FUNNY! old people<3
19. Jesus jokes:
i dont think im allowed to say they are funny

20. Dead baby jokes:
THEY'RE NASTY

21. Morbidly obese people who need their walls knocked down in order to leave their houses:
I HATE FAT PEOPLE

22. Kids getting knocked down by big dogs:
LMAO

23. Trent Reznor's lyrics:
...oh those, those are hilarious!

24. People getting voluntary cosmetic surgery that leaves them looking disfigured:
hehe

25. The guy who smoked angel dust (PCP), cut off pieces of his face and fed them to his dogs (true story):
*gags*

thanks adam's xanga!

sup, elman just walked by

sup lj

2005-10-12T21:17:49Z

Alright, I was surfing myspace and I found this, there are some errors in it that I will rectify.
You know your from a North Jersey Catholic High School when¡¦

1.Bergen, PC, Joes, IHA, Bosco, and Holy Angels are always known as the big 6. - uh yeah, minus PC cause it's a joke

2.Nobody really goes to St. Mary¡¯s, Queen of Piece, Immaculate Conception, or Paterson Catholic, nor does anybody really talk about them. - we would if it was passaic county, you moron

3.No matter what school, you always go to the Bergen vs. Bosco football game. - alright so thats right

4.PC always has the hottest girls and best cheerleaders ♥ - aka pc is a bucketful of skanks and all the dumb guidos are into them cause they're easy

5.No members from the boy¡¯s basketball teams are actually from New Jersey. - LOLZ thats not true, dipshit

6.Everyone thinks all the girls from AHA and IHA are lesbians, but most of them aren¡¯t. - what do you mean most of them?! i met probably more dykes at pc than iha!

7.PC and IHA face each other in mostly every girl¡¯s sport county quarterfinal or championship and have the biggest girl sport rivalry. - no, once every like, billion years pc gets a decent enough team to go to a championchip, where iha rams their faces into the ground, and pc goes home crying, well except for like idk in the mid-90's when pc beat iha like once in basketball, and they're still riding on that

8.Mostly everyone from St. Joes lives Rockland County. - true, but that generally happens when the school is near it

9.Everyone from Bosco is filthy rich. - no, the tuition at bosco is like the same as pc, and sure, some of the kids are, but for the most part, no

10.No one actually knows what a Crusader, Paladin, or Ironmen is. - ironmAn you mean? and a crusader was someone in the crusades (durr) a paladin was like a knight in the crusades, and an ironman is like, a knight or some shit, who cares, bosco owns at sports

11.All the girls go to Holy Angels if they really want to learn. - obviously they have never met moe (jk, morgans a smart gal)

12.Bergen, Joes, and Bosco are pretty much called daycare centers. - they forgot pc

13.Everyone¡¯s administration is all fat (President, principal, esc.).- no, thats just pc lol, sister ellen and the gang are pretty slim if i dont say so myself

14.Bergen and Bosco have the biggest rivalry. - yeah lol

15.IHA¡¯s softball team will always be good - amen, now try to get the " 's" right

16.Bergen, Joes, and Bosco will always be good at football and are known as the big 3- yeah

17.PC¡¯s girl¡¯s basketball team never had a losing season and will always be known for having the best tradition. - no, just no, they were terrible last year

18.Everyone hates their town¡¯s high school and goes to the games when they play them, even though the catholic schools will always beat the crap out of them. - i dont totally hate fair lawn!

19.Everyone is secretly jealous that they don¡¯t go to a Catholic High School. - except for the people whose only other option was pc haha

20.We are the Best Partiers. - well, im not

ok so i kinda reamed pc, but what the hell, they arent the "big 6"

ANYWAY I haven't updated in like, forever. I went to two U2 concerts at the Garden this past weekend. I won't go into detail, because it will take forever and a half.
To put it bluntly, they were the most amazing performances I've ever seen. Bono is a genius and I love him. No, I really do.

a_pasquinade @ 2005-09-18T19:00:00

2005-09-19T00:08:19Z

So the bad news is that I missed the BC vs. Bosco game Saturday.
The good news is that I have amazing friends anyway.

Remix: The first part of my day sucked, so I won't bother recapping.
However, at 6 I accompanied MP, James, Ryan, Greg, and Liz at Applebee's.
We had a 45 minute wait, so we stalled at Best Buy, visiting James' bro, Dan.
Lets just say I suck at PS2.
The wait went by faster than I had anticipated.

We went to Applebee's (Mary, party of 7).
Our waiter was probably our age.
"Um, can I have the appleberry lemonade?"
"What?!"
"I mean, a Mountain Dew."

Let's see, we all shared appetizers, buffalo wings, nachos (which Greg took no mercy upon and ate about half his weight in sour cream), and mozzerela sticks.
Ryan re-ordered his appetizers for dinner, Greg and James both had quesadilla's, Liz and MP both had chicken fingers baskets lol, and I, I, Kathleen Anne McCaffrey, had a steak.
"This is Kathleen's last meal before she hibernates this winter, it has to last her 3 months." Oh James!
Sadly, Elle wasn't present for Applebee's but to directly quote her profile:
blacktigerlily8: like cusae we had an extra chair cuase we didnt know if you would come while we were still eating so i put the thing that was in the middle of the table on the chair cuase i couldnt see everyone so then we started calling it elle so james but his arm around it and was like "sooo baby how are you doing tonight" and like started to hit on it and then all of a sudden he started making out with it it was gross but funny

So afterwards we thought we were walking to MP's, but we opted to wait 40 minutes for her mom instead. In that time we went to Lord & Taylor, almost got kicked out, went on a scarey ledge, James peed on a wall (yes, he actually did, I saw it from the hind-view), played with a shopping cart, Elle came, I used a gross bathroom, Ryan became a sugar-fairy, he got yelled at for being one, and they had to clean up a mess. Then MP's mama came in the Audi because she can't drive the other cars, so it was a 5-seater that had to fit 8. James and Mama Mangosing occupied the first two seats up front, however 6 of us were squished in the back. It was a most uncomfortable car-orgy.

At MP's house we hung out in her room for about 5 minutes, laughed at Bismark's gigantic cone, went into the basement, saw MP's baby pics, and did karaoke. Greg made us all LOL with his renditions of "Little Bunny Foo Foo" and the unforgettable "White Christmas". Let's just say he's the next Tony Bennett. We played the most intense game of keep-away, ever. Ryan was stabbed, hammers were threatened, my pants were re-ripped, Ryan scared the shit out of everyone. Then we all decided to stop after the chess set was broken lol.
Everyone gradually left after that, but it was a most entertaining evening and it was well deserved after my week at IHA. October first I am having a shin-dig at my chateau with the same crew, hopefully.

Bleh I have a bad cold = [.

bleh

2005-09-14T19:03:41Z

I'm broadcasting to you from the lobby of IHA. I can't get on myspace anymore =[.
They finally caught onto us!

Anywho, today I had a bad day. Nothing went right, at all.
So I won't talk about it.
My first meet was yesterday.
That too, I won't talk about.
All I will say, is that I sure hope it gets better soon.

Ok so I'll recap my first mass which occured right after homeroom today.
Um, it kinda had a cheesy premise ("Taking Risks At Various Edjhgs" better known as "TRAVEL"). Their examples of risks were pretty funny though, eating at a new table, going out for a new club, dating a Bosco guy if you're a Bergen fan, etc.
Tena Elman, who I met yesterday, was sitting behind me and she was making noises during the liturgy which envoked muffled uncontrollable laughing on myself, Barbra and basically our whole section. She's a funny kid.

The eucharist tasted like shit, but at least we didnt have "behavior problems", unlike Paramus Catholic. So yeah, the rest of the day was fucked up cause I didn't really know the shedule, even though it was in my agenda.
I wish it was freaking Friday already.

I've had a splitting headache for like, ever. Right now I'm kind of hoping I'll break my arm or something to get out of cross-country, because I'm pretty damn tired right about now.

Fuck, I have to go run in the rain in my nice white shirt now, I'll catch you bitches on the flipside yo.

If go there, go with me.

2005-09-11T23:39:10Z

I went to the city yesterday with my mom. We went on the path to the WTC station, it was my first time being at Ground Zero. Needless to say it was surreal. So instead of writing a long entry that will make little or no sense, I will just put the lyrics to what was for a long time, my favorite U2 song. I'm not going to lie, it always cheers me up.
Please download it.

Walk On

And love is not the easy thing
The only baggage you can bring
And love is not the easy thing
The only baggage you can bring
Is all that you can't leave behind

And if the darkness is to keep us apart
And if the daylight feels like it's a long way off
And if your glass heart should crack
And for one second you turn back
Oh no, be strong

Walk on, walk on
What you got they can't steal it
No, they can't even feel it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight

You're packing a suitcase for a place none of has been
A place that has to be believed to be seen
You could have flown away
A singing bird in an open cage
Who will only fly, only fly for freedom

Walk on, walk on
What you've got they can't deny it
Can't sell it or buy it
Walk on, walk on
You stay safe tonight

And I know it aches, how your heart it breaks
You can only take so much
Walk on, walk on

Home, hard to know what it is if you've never had one
Home, I can't say where it is but I know I'm going home
That's where the hurt is

And I know it aches and your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on

Leave it behind
You've got to leave it behind
All that you fashion
All that you make
All that you build
All that you break
All that you measure
All that you feel
All this you can leave behind
All that you reason
It’s only time
And I'll never fill up all I find
All that you bear
All that you see
All that you wear
All that you sense
All that you scheme
All you dress up
All that you’ve seen
All you create
And all that you wreck
All that you hate

R.I.P
Tommy O'Hagan

a_pasquinade @ 2005-09-10T22:40:00

2005-09-11T02:53:21Z

I'm feeling rather hopeless about males. I'm rather pathetic.

AHHH FIRST DAY

2005-09-08T01:19:20Z

I just copied this from my bulletin lol:
HOLY SHIT, TODAY WAS MY FIRST DAY AT IHA. I LOVED IT. I LOVED IT, TIMES 48759387. I'M NOT TOTALLY SURE WHY. BUT READ THIS ANYWAY.

alright so let me say this first, last night i couldnt sleep. i was so petrified, like i was up until 2 in the morning thinking about everything. boy was i scared!

needless to say with only 3.6 hours of sleep i wasnt a happy camper this morning
i ate my dry toast, drank my tea, read the post and decided today would suck

my uniform bugged the shit out of me because it was impossible to roll, i dont want to look like a skank, but at least more than .3 cms above the knee would be nice, so i didnt have to look like a fucking retard. whatever, who's going to see me?! oh only everyone
so i get there and of course everyones skirt is a nice short length, which made me furious
UNTIL I SAW MP!
oh man, my locker is right by her!
golly was i happy to see that
anastacia is above me, i was pissed i got a bottom locker
anyhow, i met a couple cool kids, then homeroom began

homeroom: i walked in an inadvertently ALMOST took a spot next to crystal cheng, then i saw T and was like "CAN I SIT BEHIND YOU?!" and she said yes, because she is the shit. announcements were made, munchkins were offered, CRYSTAL CHENG RECOGNIZED ME? AHHH! but thankfully the bell rang!
1st period: mrs rich, english. she asked us to go online, but i couldnt, so instead of being responsible, i acted like i was able to, now i am fucked. I'M READING ANTIGONE AGAIN? dammit!
then we went over vocab, and took notes
I ENJOYED IT
2nd period: PRIOR, i like him already. no, not JUST because he is irish, brouge and all, but he has a good sense of humor, and hooked me up to the net! and barbara tried, so i will give her a shout in appreciation of her efforts
locker break: ummmm i had hopps? look at my comp, but of course after that there was nothing wrong with it *is embarassed*
3rd period: addabbo? gah. she said "REALLY NICE TO MEET YOU" to me about 3 times, and im sitting in front of this girl named dana who is friends with this girl named paige who is my myspace pal. so if you're looking at this paige, thank you. i almost died of boredom, but that is to be expected. she assigned homework?
lunch: i was sitting with all my pals! it was fun, i finally got my mitt back from tina, and i ate candy cause the lunch line was too damn long, i met some cool kids. mariepat (not to be confused with pet) was nice enough to ask me how i was doing, and we were talking and probably holding up the line for the vending machine, i think if she wasnt being sarcastically nice without me knowing, then she is my favorite freshman.
4th period: math, my teachers dad died so we have a sub for the meantime, i forgot how to simplify lol, but i didnt let that on! anyhow, it was kinda boring, but could have been worse!
5th period: art. my final class! i didnt expect to know anyone, but alas i recognized crista! awesome! she was nice, there is a girl in the class who looks scarey, but you know, after experiencing the weirdos in pc, i can deal
then we were let out from skoo
it was meghans birfday (happy birthday!) and yeah she's a nice kid
we changed and whatnot, stalled, and finally went to xc
we ran 5 miles, well we ran at least 4 of them lol
i hate hills, i cant say it enough
all in all, i loved it
jenn just came by to pick up her yankee bosox tickets
yesss
anyhow, hopefully my one tommorow will be more eventfull
i really loved being with all-girls lol
it was so much nicer/quieter/laid back!

thats the way it is

2005-09-07T02:05:08Z

In my last entry I said I would recap my entire summer, I will get to that this weekend.
For the moment, I will just say this, it kicked ass.

Ummm let see, I haven't done this in a while.
Sunday I went to Urban Outfitters with Adam, I bought two t-shirts and a really nice sweater, Adam just got a t-shirt. We went up to Lincoln Center to see Fordham but the library was closed, so that sucked, considering we got lost on the way there. All in all the city was fun, I got a copy of The Onion.
Monday I went out to eat with Pet, Deanna, and Roseanne! It was fun!
My mom was in a shitty mood, and we stopped by the DiSanzo residence for their BBQ on the way back.
Saturday, um, actually I forgot what I did Saturday, so it probably wasn't anything that great.
Yeah I don't know.

TOMMOROW I START IHA. I'M SO MOTHERFUCKING NERVOUS.
I'm like, shuddering. I can't imagine it will be uncomfortable, as far as people are concerned anyway. Reguardless, I have no clue how to get around. I have to like hook up a router and all that shit soon so I can go online at home.

Ah, so I'll update tommorow to discuss how, hopefully, wrong I was.
I pretty much need a boyfriend, now.

I hate you August.

2005-08-28T22:28:29Z

Fucking Summer is ending.

It was a good one, when it's all over I'll recap it for you. From my last day of school, to the last time I can sleep past 12 during the week.

Enough about that though, I may get sad.

Anyhow, since Monday I've done a bit, believe it or not. Cross country is a lot of fun and I like it more each day. The people are nice, and the work is getting hard. My time trial was terrible though, but I'm sure I'll get better. Everyone at IHA is really nice. It's more team-oriented than PC. It isn't totally about personal glory, it's about representing IHA too. I hate hills.

I didn't do much other than XC until Thursday. On Thursday I went to the crappy version of GSP (Paramus Park) with Elle, James, and Mariepet. Auntie Anne's pretzels suck contrary to Adams rave reviews. Some weird guy who looked like a pedophile complimented my hair when I was on line to get a Dr. Pepper and so I just looked up with a blank stare, babbled, then spit out a very scared "thank you". The mall was too small and we went through it about 397842 times. We spent most of our time in an H&M (surprise, surprise) and Mariepet purchased another necklace which strongly resembeles her other 489578345. Elle bought a blazer I picked out, it looked smashing. Some of Mariepet's IHA friends came. Sadly, I only remember one girls name (Maureen), but they were all very nice. We didn't leave too long after they did.

On Friday I finally got to finish the makeover of Brian Hughes. I was there with Pet, Elle, Ryan, Greg, and of course, Brian. I picked out a polo and track jacket from AE, and some t-shirts from Hollister. The final result was smashing if I don't say so myself. It was rediculous, I saw so many fucking people.
List of people I saw who I didn't plan on seeing:
Jonce
Maged
Adam
Evan
Matt
Kirsten
Julia
Jessica
Nicole
Katie
Amanda and her boyfriend Mike

Fuck, I can't remember any more, but I know there are more. Anyhow, it was a lot of fun, especially in Borders. I had a questioning of faith that made Elle cry with laughter. I found what could serve as Mariepet's autobiography ("I'm Far Too Small for School").

Saturday we had a "Mars-watching" party at the Mangosing residence. Due to the absence of a few individuals it wasn't as fun as I'm sure it would have been. Oh and Mars wasn't there either, way to check your info guys. Elle, James, and Pet were the only ones there. I only have one class with Mariepet and my fucking schedule has no Western Civ. on it. I looked through the yearbook. We watched TV, well at least two of us did (it was Elle and James' one month anniversary!). If you want to make Mariepet laugh really hard, turn on IMX or whatever that show "Most Extreme Elimination" is called. Pet and I ate pancakes after. Bismark was big. Piano playing went down. We ordered Dominos (actually James did) and during the 40 minute wait James got to experience some serious girl-talk, sorry James. We called Greg, because we were bored, he was jealous of our pizza since he was stuck eating old-people food. Then we called Roseanne and Deanna, they came over, I met Pierre. We had two medium pies, one sausage and the other pepperoni ("DO YOU HAVE THE COUPON?"). People laughed at my left leg, and my kool-aid, which sucked. Good discussions were had, then Roseanne and Deanna left. We looked at the sky for about ten minutes, then realized it wasn't all that great. We went back to Pet's room and went online, watched TV, took pictures and whatnot until we all left. I took the stuffed animal James won me in Florida, and got home. 'Twas fun.

Today I went to Staples, it made me angry. I hate the Gotti family.

Sorry I haven't gotten around to this lately.

2005-08-23T02:45:03Z

Lately, I've been pretty flipping busy.
Last Friday was Briguys makeover. Due to the abmormally large crowd we were traveling with, and the fact that I had to leave at 7:30, we only got through pants and shoes. However, part duex of the makeover will more than likely take place this Friday, or at least sometime this week.
Saturday was my Grandfathers 80th birthday party.It was at the Harbour Lights at the South Street Seaport on a pier looking directly at the Brooklyn Bridge. About 40 people came, since it was just immediate family, grandaunts and uncles, and business associates.
The food was amazing. I was the only young person there. It was nice though, because my g-pa is no doubt, the person I admire most.
Sunday I had Adam over and we watched "The Hours." When we were in Easy Video we saw who else but David Epstein. It was the first time I've seen him off of any narcotics in a while, so it was memorable.
Today (Monday), I had to wake up early at 7:30 so I could be all good by 11:30 to get over to IHA for cross-country at 12. It was a lot of fun! I never had such a good time running 3.2 miles in my life. I made friends, or the beginning of what might be anyway, with a couple of girls. I found everyone to be very nice. I'm happy I took Steph's advice.
I came home, ran 3 more miles and was lazy until 6:30 when Natasha asked if I would care to join her at Dairy Queen in Teaneck. She drove using my shitty mapquest directions, and eventually we made it there. She met up with Kevin who helped us, and we briefly discussed soccer until a customer came by. All in all it was pretty fun.
I'm trying to get rid of my farmers tan/burn. It may take some dedication, but I'm willing to work at it.
Anyhow, I'm looking foward to the rest of the week/XC season.

yawn

2005-08-16T00:02:01Z

Uh, nothing really new.
I've been having a lazy summer lately.
Saturday I met Steph at the mall. That was cool.
I really wanted these pants from A&F that cost $49.50.
I had only $46.50.
Until I bought my pretzel and soon after found $3 in my pocket.
Yeah, what can I say, that's the luck of the Irish.
However, it is fine because they didn't have my size anyway.

Sunday I went to Loehmann's at Westfield. I bought a pair of jeans and a Penguin polo.
The jeans I like very much and I got a $120 discount which I'm very proud of.
The Penguin polo has a button missing, so it shall be returned.
However, it is black with white trim, it's long-sleeved so I wont be able to debut it until October or November.
Today I went to Adam's and saw a vast majority of "Girl With a Pearl Earring", it was very good.
Scarlett Johanson's eyebrows are lighter than mine which make me feel good.

Friday I am making-over Brian Hughes.
By the time I am done he will get more ass then the entire lunchtable combined, which doesn't take much.
Reguardless, he will be pretty smokin' when I go Carson Kressley on him.

I've been running a lot lately, taking different routes almost every day.
Two miles is my average, I'd say I'm slowly but surely adjusting.
Today someone asked me directions to the cemetery (weird, I know) and I was finally not all babble-y and gave the right directions. This was the fourth time I was asked for directions within the past week, and yeah, I'm pretty bad at giving them. Thankfully most of my friends have navigational systems in their cars, otherwise I'd be out in Kansas right now.
Yeah, but I kinda scraped my iPod up a bit when it fell while I was running.
I screamed a gigantic religious exclimation in front of the temple where it happened in my rage, and I caught the eyes of about five people. So yeah, my iPod is no longer pretty.
I wish I had a bigger vocabulary.
I wish I didn't have to run everyday to become better at it.
It's a shame I've put so many fat people down, it puts pressure on me to stay skinny. However, my rants about fat people with Adam is almost worth all the nastiness that comes with running.

So, yeah I don't know. I played Xbox with Eddie this morning, he kinda kicked my ass, but it's okay. Mostly because I kicked the controller out of his hand during "NHLHockey 2K5". He didn't even see it coming, the poor bastard, he should know I don't play fair.

pouts

2005-08-13T16:38:32Z

I feel lonely.

I need a boyfriend.

I need to get good at running, soon.

Most of all, I need a shopping spree at Urban Outfitters like what I usually do every summer.

here we are now

2005-08-10T20:02:51Z

I haven't updated in a while.
Not much has happened.
During the weekend I hungout with Adam, Namu, and David.
I went to the mall on Monday.
I've had soccer games weeknights, I'm playing, eh.
I'm probably doing XC instead.
Tuesday I was infuriated because I couldn't go to the city with Stefano and Ashley because my mom is a cunt. It's that simple.

I saw "The Notebook" last night with Adam.
We rented it as a joke.
Watermellon Twizzlers suck.
I predicted the whole movie, including his stutter, and her near-crashing of a car.
We also laughed at the old people when they died.
We're going to hell for sure.

Then when I got home at 11, Steven (Samols) asked to call me.
He was drunk.
We had a very politically-charged conversation spanning the better part of two hours.
I talked to him till he was sober, it was kind of funny.

Anyhow, I'm now looking at my inbox on Myspace, and I have some old Daily-B's I found.
Those were so much fun.
May 27, 2005
will repost this later after the movies, but......
1st period- free, yeah thats right i went against my "all water diet" and got a yoohoo, cause im going to be fat. ariella had a dress down. and showed mucho cleavage which freaked me out whenever i would look at her/share my mini ipod
2nd period- bio, fools, i hate that class, its so motherfucking easy/gizay
3rd period- i took a chapter 10 test. that dumb bitch couldnt explain her own shitty directions to me. fjdskjfklsj i fell asleep soon after passing it in
4th period- miss b, it seems my distaste for her isnt a lonely cry, everyone with a brain does, so yeah its basically just me and 3 other people
5th period- fidemi, i got a 96 on my vocab, it almost compensates for my 63? on grammar, no actually i was kidding, it doesnt
6th period- jeez brian im sorry your not ugly, your sorta cute when your angry. dumbass tiped over my effing notebook which got me red with fury and curses, however dumbass didnt notice?! well dumbass just re-earned that nickname!
7th period- math, test, i did pretty good probably, i pray. jfkdk jenn was trying to tell me something i couldnt hear despite the fact that shes 4 inches away from me. sebba was asking me "can you buy me a bagel?". word, idk HOW THE HELL he knows i was at modern bagel that one time, but its so motherfucking creepy i am shitting my pants thinking about it now. jenn gave me my track jacket back, which was chill, gracias jenn
8th period- i forgot to put "+3" on my sands test so i got a 77 instead of an 80 *whaps head* dammit, well i still did way better then most of my class, however i have been slacking off in sands, and frankly, i cant afford too.....anymore. bleck, i like miss sands, if she wasnt 10 years older than us or if i was just 10 years older, we'd have good times. maybe, idk.

bus ride- natasha was accompanying us today, it was cool. no need for the ipod. until i revealed my not-so-secret secret that im going to iha, word, i thought everyone knew? crimety, i feel kinda sorta really bad now, but word, my grade sucks, and theres like 85734895734 of us, i need something way smaller where they actually have standards for acceptance rather than herding everyone in like cattle. plus, i have like... way better friends at iha, with a few exceptions at pc i dont, then again am i supposed to want to be pals with someone who picks their nose, or even worse, is ghetto and persists on blasting shitty music, and trying to pick fights, and of course walking like fucking red fox from sandford and son in the hallway? or the stupid preps who literally dont know their ass from their elbow, or even worse when not to wear a ramones shirt? no no my grade sucks and im so sorry for the people who have mild intellegence who got suckered into this hell hole and who have fallen into a deep well of regret. the administration doesnt do jackshit and i refuse to pay for a school which many substitute for a public one.

amen.
im going to the movies with ari and others tonight, a recap later will ensue

Aww, I kinda love my old self.

Thank God it's Friday.... night

2005-08-06T04:20:07Z

Hella long week.
Today I was finally put in a group with more than one upperclassman.

In fact, I was with the Varsity/JV.
Some nice girls were there, but I was probably more shy then I should have been.

The first team that played was what I assume to be mostly Varsity, they played girls from the Ramsey Hotspur.
They were really motherfucking good, it looked like a Goddamn professional game.
Needless to say I was ions beyond petrified when my team had to play them.
I played left back and I was marking one of the fastest players I have ever seen.
I was totally fucked. Thankfully she didn't score.
Then we had a game, half of us versus the other half.
The girl I covered was really good, but I did alright, sorta, not really considering I had only had practice with some froshies the whole week.
Some poor kid got hurt and we ended the camp as her father drove down to take her to the hospital.

I came home, ate, showered, and watched America's Next Top Model marathon.
Tyra Banks <3.
I would really fucking love to be on that show, I don't think I'm good-looking enough, but I still really want to.

After that I went to Jaze's birthday party.
It was fun, well the parts where people had pants on were anyway.
My hair was a wet mess and I couldn't go in deep in the pool due to the fact that I could only use one leg because my right one was really cramped and sore.
It rained and whatnot, the pool became cold.
We hung out and it was pretty cool all in all.
It's so funny how out of all the pools I've been in this summer, not once have I worn a bathing suit.
Believe me, for the safety of others' eyesight, it was for the best.

I came home at about 10:45.
My mom had the DiSanzos, Milas', and Oettings over.
They left soon after I arrived.

I'm tired, and I can't wait to sleep past 7:40 tommorow morning.

eh

2005-08-05T02:49:22Z

Today was alright.
I went to camp. I have decided not to try out for IHA soccer.
It was really motherfucking hot out.

They changed the buns at McDonald's, they're some fucked up honey shit now.
I had that in Florida back in April, they better change it back.

The most depressing sight ever is an older person working at McDonald's, or really any fast food place.
This week was shitty.

I feel like I haven't really hung out in forever.

Aside from Adam nobody has really called and I haven't been online that much.
I sorta feel lonesome even though I have no reason to.

I saw a really good Law and Order: SVU today. I like that this summer I've actually been hanging around with my mom more than I usually do (usually do = never).

I don't want to have a really crappy post where I just moan about what's wrong with my life. Especially since I've seen far worse scenarios and I really shouldn't complain about anything.

So I'm ending this before I sound self-absorbed.

flipping froshies

2005-08-03T23:49:13Z

I wind up with the freshmen every fucking day at soccer camp.
I think everyone thinks I am one due to the fact that transfers are so rare.

It sucks.
Now I know why everyone hates fucking freshmen.
Some are cool, but others, oh-em-gee, wow.
I want to kill them.

They're really bitchy too, calm down, you've only known each other for three days.
Some are alright, actually I really like 3-4 of them. The rest can go to hell.

I had salmon tonight for the first time in a while, it's really the only fish I like.
Just in case you ever need to know.

I can't wait for this week to be over.
Jaze's party is Friday.
That'll be fun.
My soccer schedule is hindering my ability to stay up much past 12.
Last night I passed out at 11:30, which I believe is this summers record for earliest bedtime.

I'm reading this really interesting book called "The History of the World in Six Glasses."
It's for summer reading for history. It's about how six different drinks shaped history (beer, wine, spirits, coffee, tea, and Coca-Cola). Reading non-fiction is usually really boring and hard, but this isn't really.

So now that you've heard all my boring and useless information I can reveal within the 10 minutes it took me to write this. I shall end this.

WAIT. Ok I just thought of something I wanted to say:
Tori Spelling is nasty, and I hate her with a strong passion.
My "irritated" icon makes me look angrier than I really am.

oy

2005-08-03T00:41:00Z

Today I was sore.
Like, the sorest I've ever been, maybe.
Couldn't-walk-down-stairs sore.

I didn't attend camp or the game.

Tommorow I am, however.

Bleh, my mom called the coach to see if she could get a refund, and the guy was like "yeah she should try, it's amazing they allowed any trannsfers in."

So I spent my day going to Target, watching E!, and going to Haagen Daz with Adam.
It was very hot out, and we had to walk.
The pain in my thighs has given me an uncanny resemblance to Red Fox from the 70's sitcom Sandford & Son. I'm coming Elizabeth!

Tommorow my G-ma is coming up from Spring Lake to go to GSP with my mom. She still needs a dress for Saturday, and frankly, the Nordstrom at the shore will not suffice.
So if all you mallrats see an older irish lady walking around with a younger irish lady, thats my grandma and my mom. For those of you who I do an old irish lady impression for, she is my inspiration.

i was right

2005-08-01T21:15:36Z

I was right in my last post, mostly.
They had some nice kids.
Overall though,it was just a really big embarassment.

oh jeez

2005-08-01T02:24:33Z

I am scared.

Scared, because in less than 12 hours I'm going to be on a roasting hot field at Indian Hills high school. I will be playing soccer around some of the best people in the state, and I have nobody to talk to that I know. The thought of it is making me shake.
I wasn't even half this scared when I went for my first PC practice, and I didn't know anyone there either.

The following slew of curses is directed at my laziness in the month of July:
shit fuck, cunt-sucking, rat bastard, motherfucking bitch, asswipe, cum dumpster, ass, whore, twat

I'm contemplating breaking my leg to avoid the embarassment. However, I don't think I'd enjoy being on crutches, and IHA girls can't be THAT mean.

Or can they?
I don't know.

briguys partayyyy

2005-07-31T03:05:04Z

Last night I went to a Waking Ashland show.
I didn't realize it was a local one, and I felt like a poser.
We got in for free because Mariepet knew the lead singer, Jonathan.
It was really good, and a ton of fun.

Today was Brian Hughes (Huggies) very belated birthday party.
It was a surprise. We got there at about 3:15 and it was pretty boring until Brian got there at 4:15.
He was pretty surprised. He went into the pool, some of us ate.
In about an hour, everyone had either been forced into, or willingly threw themselves into Brian's pool. There was a long war with water balloons before and everyone was just like "fuck it, I'm already drenched." I had a hell of a good time in the pool and I hope my favorite pair of jeans make a full recovery. We finally met Eugene, Briguys best friend, and as it turns out he knows Judy and goes to the Academies. After what seemed like a good hour in the pool, Lesly and Leah came and we all decided to get out, seeing as it was getting really cold anyway. It was a whole lot of fun throwing around water ballons and playing around, I hope we do it again this summer.
After we got out of the pool I had to face the worst feeling ever, wet denim.
I pleaded to Brian to get me a pair of shorts so I could go back in, but he was far too lazy to go in.
His sister eventually got me a pair of PC pajama pants. Since they were so comfy I decided not to go back in with Jackie (sorry Jackie.) Instead I threw water balloons at Brian who was in the pool, except I threw them kinda hard. As a result, Brian got really scared and didn't allow me to, from fear he'd pee his pants/break his nose. Mike Kay, Eugene, Jackie, and myself proceeded to make water balloons while everyone else was sitting around, except I didn't throw mine at anyone. Ok, so I threw one at Brian, but he was already wet.
Then everyone got out of the pool and I went out front. Jessica (Brian's sister), Eugene, Ryan, and Kunal were having a talk and I joined. It was very nice, topics from PC teachers to Jaze's excessive masturbation were discussed. Various others came, eventually we left to leave Elle and James alone on the front lawn. We soon returned. I left soon after.
Last I saw Brian was running around on his front lawn saying "I HAVE NO PANTS ON" and dancing around. Jaze had chugged a beer, as did James. I think its for the best that I left before I saw any nudity or throwing up. Brian had only lost his sobriety last night, and who the fuck knows who he might end up sleeping next to tonight.
All in all, it was a lot of fun. We should have parties like that again this summer, just because.